I know this doesn't belong on here but I have to get it out.

**speedracerchick1** · #1 02-21-2012, 11:22 AM

Well, I know this isn't something you just post up on the board. But I know 85% of you personally and have known you for years.

So I need the whorish stuff to be dialed down, Jason reads the site even thou he isn't a member. I had a bad judgment call drinking one with a very good friend one night about 8 months ago and I cheated on Jason, then started a relationship with this same person. I've never been the cheating type, we had been having a rough time in our relationship and I made a bad judgment call.

I know most of you are not a big fan of cheaters, and I understand I am a horrible person for what I did. But I am trying to move forward and try to repair what I have broken. So for me to be able to stay on the board which you guys know I like to be on here shooting the shit. After writing this I'm not so sure I will stay.

I had to tell everyone and get it off my chest so they didn't go on about Jason being controlling because his actions of looking at everything have been justified the past 8 months. We did break up months ago and I did have a relationship with the person I cheated with. I found out Jason was sick, and not like a cold or something and my feelings about him never really went away. I came to help him and after talking and getting everything bad we had done to each other out of the way we wanted to get back together and we planned to get married. Not that it will fix what horrible thing I did to him, but because we love each other and I will be there until the end whenever that may be. I will never cheat on a person again, it has made my life/ day to day so bad that I have to see a psychiatrist.

I have already lost very good friends over this deal and I don't want to lose more, but I understand if I do. I also know I am going to get shit about this or deleted. I'm prepared for the worse so throw it on me.

**Bobzilla** · #2 02-21-2012, 11:29 AM

imo, we all make mistakes. How we deal with those mistakes is what makes us who we are. Do you continue to make the same mistake, or do you learn from it and find a way to move on?

I loathe cheating. I've been cheated on by serial cheaters..... but they never learned from their mistakes and I didn't give them a second chance. Sounds like you're getting that second chance and I wish you the best luck. It won't be easy, but nothing in life worth having is easy.

**speedracerchick1** · #3 02-21-2012, 11:31 AM

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Originally Posted by Bobzilla

imo, we all make mistakes. How we deal with those mistakes is what makes us who we are. Do you continue to make the same mistake, or do you learn from it and find a way to move on?

I loathe cheating. I've been cheated on by serial cheaters..... but they never learned from their mistakes and I didn't give them a second chance. Sounds like you're getting that second chance and I wish you the best luck. It won't be easy, but nothing in life worth having is easy.

I've been cheated on multiple times also, I don't know what I was thinking. I am getting a second chance which is why I posted up here so you guys would understand why I am not making the same kind of jokes anymore if I stay on here.

I have learned a great deal and I am trying to become a better person after doing such a horrible thing.

**Munky** · #4 02-21-2012, 11:34 AM

We all know Jason is a good guy, and everyone makes mistakes, so no one is going to put you on the stake for that.

Hopefully he knows that 99% of the stuff we say on here is in a joking manner, anyway.

Like I said before - as long as you're happy, that's all we care about.

You know we're here for you Kass!

**speedracerchick1** · #5 02-21-2012, 11:37 AM

Thanks Cory, I explained to him everything on here is joking. But considering the circumstances he doesn't know that because of what I did.

**vatruck** · #6 02-21-2012, 11:55 AM

Much like Bob said, mistakes are made and what really defines character is how you handle things from here. I think you're on the right track and I wish you all the luck in the world.

I will happily step in to be ICS's new target for sexual harassment jokes.

I once passed out in a chick's muff while going down-town. Let's start off there.

**speedracerchick1** · #7 02-21-2012, 11:59 AM

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Originally Posted by vatruck

Much like Bob said, mistakes are made and what really defines character is how you handle things from here. I think you're on the right track and I wish you all the luck in the world.

I will happily step in to be ICS's new target for sexual harassment jokes.

I once passed out in a chick's muff while going down-town. Let's start off there.

Thank you Ryan. You are my top harasser.

And to the rest wtf..

**Yamaha** · #8 02-21-2012, 12:04 PM

You've already done better than 99.9% of other people out there by admitting it, all it garners is respect.

with that said.......

**speedracerchick1** · #9 02-21-2012, 12:06 PM

**Ricky Bobby** · #10 02-21-2012, 12:06 PM

wait.... nothing said on this site is serious? I am so disappoint.

(not about special K... I could give a crap about all that, just one comment: cheater rehab is hard. YMMV.)
Hope Jason gets better.

**speedracerchick1** · #11 02-21-2012, 12:08 PM

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Originally Posted by Ricky Bobby

wait.... nothing said on this site is serious? I am so disappoint.

(not about special K... I could give a crap about all that, just one comment: cheater rehab is hard. YMMV.)
Hope Jason gets better.

Did you just call me Special K?

Thanks it is hard.

**Edgar** · #12 02-21-2012, 12:11 PM

Damn! We have grown up a little bit, I would usually come up in here and start talking shit but honestly those years are mad over and what you are doing Kass is the right thing, im the type of person that doesnt give 5 fucks what anyone thinks or says but trust as you know is the biggest thing a couple can have and I wish you and your Jason the best. I say keep shooting the shit and remember that these forums are the internet and at the end of the day this isnt real life or should take anything seriously that anyone says behind a computer screen, lets not pull a Be)z here if you know what I mean.

Anyways you should stay because youre always going to find yourself checking out the forum and wishing you can log on and its not even that big of a deal. Also, everyone has multiple loves and we are only human, well im not im awesome.

**speedracerchick1** · #13 02-21-2012, 12:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Edgar

Damn! We have grown up a little bit, I would usually come up in here and start talking shit but honestly those years are mad over and what you are doing Kass is the right thing, im the type of person that doesnt give 5 fucks what anyone thinks or says but trust as you know is the biggest thing a couple can have and I wish you and your Jason the best. I say keep shooting the shit and remember that these forums are the internet and at the end of the day this isnt real life or should take anything seriously that anyone says behind a computer screen, lets not pull a Be)z here if you know what I mean.

Anyways you should stay because youre always going to find yourself checking out the forum and wishing you can log on and its not even that big of a deal. Also, everyone has multiple loves and we are only human, well im not im awesome.

I know everything on here is a joke, and I give people shit all the time. But Jason isn't used to these forums and you have known me on the forums for years and the occasional hang outs. I don't really say the same things in person than I do from behind a computer screen. Unless the occasional embarrassing someone comes up then I will try to make them turn red. But it's all in good fun.

Man we have all grown up, so much in the past almost 11 years. Since I got on IIP.

**HamsterStyle** · #14 02-21-2012, 12:18 PM

There's gotta be a black hole forming now that Edgar made a nice post.

**Ricersux** · #15 02-21-2012, 12:19 PM

You can't leave the site...we all need that female perspective sometimes. Were you wrong? Yes...Are you paying for your actions now? Yes. Beyond that, it's not our place to judge but to support/guide members in need...to me that's what this whole "community" thing is all about.

**Bobzilla** · #16 02-21-2012, 12:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Ricersux

You can't leave the site...we all need that female perspective sometimes. Were you wrong? Yes...Are you paying for your actions now? Yes. Beyond that, it's not our place to judge but to support/guide members in need...to me that's what this whole "community" thing is all about.

This. What happens in your relationship is between the two of you. Your results will vary.

**speedracerchick1** · #17 02-21-2012, 12:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Ricersux

You can't leave the site...we all need that female perspective sometimes. Were you wrong? Yes...Are you paying for your actions now? Yes. Beyond that, it's not our place to judge but to support/guide members in need...to me that's what this whole "community" thing is all about.

I don't want to leave the board, I just wasn't sure how all this would go. I love being on here and giving you guys a hard time along with giving input on everything else.

I really do appreciate all of the support during this crap time I am having, although it was brought on myself. You guys are the best!